Well not posting here that's a fact. I've recently visited the UK to see my girls and parents, now E is over there doing the pre-Christmas visit with all 5 of his kids! I normally don't mind being on my own in this great big place but this time I'm not feeling very comfortable, rattling around and wishing it was smaller and I could feel the boundaries.
After a few rough months, emotionally and effortwise we have made the decision to sell-up next year and move back to England. However, this will not be accomplised quickly. We won't wait until the whole house is renovated, that would be another 2 years at the rate it's going, and E will be on his knees by then. This means yet another 'partially renovated' property on the market, so we will be very lucky to get a buyer for months, and they will want it for a knock-down price. I will add a caveat here, there is a slight possiblity that we will just buy something smaller, less land, less work, in France which was E's first suggestion. But, in my heart of hearts, I want to go home and E agrees, so I think that's what we must aim for. It won't be easy, property has continued rising in price at a silly rate and we will have to settle for something very small. But, I have far to much 'stuff' anyway, I'm ready to live more simply. As long as there's room for my bike, wheel, little loom, carder, knitting machine, stash, sewing machine, overlocker, Christ! I must make these things work for me or they should go, no, no good, can't.
I don't know if I can part with the animals though, but I can't stay here. It would be wonderful if we could find some land to rent in the UK and then buy a small house very nearby.
On a lighter note, I've discovered
Cast On! It's a podcast hosted by Brenda Dayne. I can't belive it's being going for over a year and I didn't come across it before, I followed a link from
The Panopticon I've resisted listen to podcasts after the first one I tried, wondering what all the fuss was about, was less than inspiring, sounding as if it had been recorded in the loo so I'm afraid I didn't give it much of a chance. Brenda's voice has one of those calm, gentle, earthy north american accent. She includes
pod safe music along with interviews with a wide variety of people involved with yarn crafts, of course she does talk knitting sometimes. It's made me cry and laugh out loud - not at the same time, and I love it. It just makes me more and more homesick.